Sunday, June 12, 2016
Travis - The Man Who B-Sides - 2000
I fell into a deep depression. I had never realized that I was suffering from it even when I was in it. I was watching my job and marriage and life fall apart before my eyes, and never considered the fact that I needed help. My life had become a living black hole, and there are portions to this day that I don't recall....
I walked into a Borders bookstore in the winter (all I remember is that it was cold and I had a coat on.) They used to have these little listening stations in their music section that allowed you to listen to albums before you purchased them. I saw the new Travis album, having never heard of them, and considered listening. I put the headphones on, pressed play, and that was the end of that, I was hooked.
To say I was hooked because it is a good album is not a good description. At that point in my life, when I was at the lowest of lows and wallowing in self-hatred and self-disgust, listening to those songs allowed my some solace, some comfort and some hope. It allowed my soul to soak in solitude and cry. It kept the knife from my throat. What's rough is that I had Cure's Bloodflowers and Air's Virgin Suicides at the same time, so those two fed my depression. To this day I cannot listen to Bloodflowers and I can rarely listen to the Air album, but I will always go back and listen to Travis.
Needless to say, I got help and it took nearly a decade for me to come out of it. I still suffer from it occasionally now, but I know how to identify it and address it, whereas before I didn't. And I can still listen to The Man Who.
Here are the b-sides. They're pretty good, and the Brittany Spears cover is pretty hilarious.